i’m so sad
with eleven things were very easy for clara - her life was in perfect balance - an adventure every wednesday with this young goofy man she could control easily; she was fond of him and he was fond of her and they had these charming adventures together and life was so easy. but then this darker, wilder doctor emerged, this man who’d certainly not let her control him as effortlessly as before, and he brought out these harsher parts of her - the control freak, the carer, the one who’s human when he forgets to be or just doesn’t feel like being (which is very often); suddenly she’s not just a moral compass, she’s his entire conscience. and things became so much wilder and unexpectable and made clara feel things she’s never felt before and that’s when the addiction emerged. she already had this deep connection with the doctor and when being with him started changing her and taking a toll from her, she lets it happen. her having two lives became much more than just her doctor life and her normal life - it’s her new self with the new doctor, and her old self with her old life and danny, and when things came clashing together one life, one personality had to win, and the addiction won, because in her heart clara is an adventurer - 101 places to see! - and that can never change, and it took over her and over her life, she lets it do it and just isn’t aware that there’s any bad side to it at all because the doctor is her impossible hero whom she always looks up to - even when he seems to be the student and she the teacher, he’s still the one who does the amazing things, and it reaches a point where in time of danger she pretends to be him… only she them decides to do what SHE would do, not what the doctor would do, and that shows how much these two lives of hers got mixed up together beyond recognition. and she’s happy and proud, she thinks that her being addicted to this new wild situation is her controlling it, but she’s changing, and the doctor can see it very clearly and it’s killing him, he takes responsibility (he didn’t want her to change, he took her hand and in a rare moment of tenderness and honesty he told her he didn’t want her to change, and it was in the middle of a comedic scene in deep breath so it’s easy to forget but he meant it and now she’s changing and it’s his fault), and she doesn’t really understand because she was him - she was her hero and she did good and she was in control and how could that be bad?
and things are falling apart and i’m so scared of what might happen before s8 ends
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